stood up

the most painful part
is that my friends knew
and lingered
even after i mentioned they could leave
how did they know better than me
that someone they didn't know
would hurt me
once it was abundantly clear
that i'd spend the night alone
my friends
left me
with their bottle of wine
the gesture saying
you're going to need this
more than us
now
I'm holding myself
an arm's length away from me
saying
what is wrong with you