you laughed
i heard
i looked
you walked
and drove
passed me
i speak in words
because the body
has a language
all its own
some time
real soon
you will
kiss me
or I'll
kiss you
that's a
promise
Friday, December 31, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Teachers, Poets, and Children
There are three types of people
Teachers, poets, and children
One who can sing
One who can dance
And the one who can
sing and dance with them
Teachers, poets, and children
One who can sing
One who can dance
And the one who can
sing and dance with them
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Fences
it's okay
to feel or to think
you're the only one
who feels this way
desperate
it's alright
to wake up alone
and touch empty space
the other side
of your bed
it's okay
to feel and to think
everything is
affecting you
good or bad
it's alright
to wake up alone
and touch empty space
and feel empty
desperate
to feel or to think
you're the only one
who feels this way
desperate
it's alright
to wake up alone
and touch empty space
the other side
of your bed
it's okay
to feel and to think
everything is
affecting you
good or bad
it's alright
to wake up alone
and touch empty space
and feel empty
desperate
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Christmas Poem #5
Christ and the Human Condition
and Gift Bearers
and an Acceptance
of Everything More or Less than what is Given
Clearly I Did Not Know Jesus
He and His Words
were Marked and Remarked
Before My Time in Regards to Our Existence
in regards to our existence
i'm gonna be
the best damn person
i could ever be
and Gift Bearers
and an Acceptance
of Everything More or Less than what is Given
Clearly I Did Not Know Jesus
He and His Words
were Marked and Remarked
Before My Time in Regards to Our Existence
in regards to our existence
i'm gonna be
the best damn person
i could ever be
tie your shoes
i'm not sure what those wires mean
but every once in a while
a pair of shoes
get laced up and draped
over one of them
it's just as good as graffiti
and i am more concerned about
who wore those shoes
and give less thought to
who tossed them up there
but every once in a while
a pair of shoes
get laced up and draped
over one of them
it's just as good as graffiti
and i am more concerned about
who wore those shoes
and give less thought to
who tossed them up there
PICTURES, DRIED BLOOD & BLACK EYES
I WISH YOU WOULD HAVE TAKEN IT BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH IT SOMETIMES I HIDE IT IN A CHEST OR I WILL LIGHT A CANDLE ON MY DRESSER AND PROP YOU UP AGAINST MY LAMP BESIDE THE CANDLE IN A HOPEFUL WAY
CAPS LOCK
MY NEPHEW ASKED ME TO WRITE A POEM
IN CAPS LOCK
THEN HE ASKED
ARE YOU WRITING IT TO THE WHOLE WORLD
ARE YOU
HE READ WHAT WE HAD WRITTEN SO FAR
OUTLOUD
AND SAID
YOU WRITE THE REST
I HESTITATED
THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT I WANTED HIM TO SAY
HE SAID
WHAT IS TAKING SO LONG
HE SAID
IT JUST TAKES SO LONG SOMETIMES
HE ASKED
IS IT DONE
IS OUR POEM DONE
HE SAID
JUST BE DONE
JUST SEND IT
IN CAPS LOCK
THEN HE ASKED
ARE YOU WRITING IT TO THE WHOLE WORLD
ARE YOU
HE READ WHAT WE HAD WRITTEN SO FAR
OUTLOUD
AND SAID
YOU WRITE THE REST
I HESTITATED
THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT I WANTED HIM TO SAY
HE SAID
WHAT IS TAKING SO LONG
HE SAID
IT JUST TAKES SO LONG SOMETIMES
HE ASKED
IS IT DONE
IS OUR POEM DONE
HE SAID
JUST BE DONE
JUST SEND IT
Friday, December 24, 2010
threading needles and untangling knots
the news hit me hard
but i'm always up
for being the hero
and you didn't ask
for money this time
you just asked for christmas
so i delivered
i used my savings
and that wasn't easy
but it was worth it
to see my nephew
in the grips of belief
we wish you were here
single working mom
this one's for my sister
pretty and perfect
sweet beyond belief
Jacey Lynne Zuniga
but i'm always up
for being the hero
and you didn't ask
for money this time
you just asked for christmas
so i delivered
i used my savings
and that wasn't easy
but it was worth it
to see my nephew
in the grips of belief
we wish you were here
single working mom
this one's for my sister
pretty and perfect
sweet beyond belief
Jacey Lynne Zuniga
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Natural
after Santa came
we took a nap
me
my mom
my nephew
her dog
and my cat
in my bed
i never slept so well
now Santa is gone
and my nephew
asked
outright
how he
fit through my
fireplace
and i said
don't you watch the movies
the sun is down now
the night is here
long
past eve
just now
you and me
and tonight
and you said
or should i keep moving
i can't answer that
it doesn't mean
what
i think
you think
it might mean
and tonight
i just want
you to be still with me
we took a nap
me
my mom
my nephew
her dog
and my cat
in my bed
i never slept so well
now Santa is gone
and my nephew
asked
outright
how he
fit through my
fireplace
and i said
don't you watch the movies
the sun is down now
the night is here
long
past eve
just now
you and me
and tonight
and you said
or should i keep moving
i can't answer that
it doesn't mean
what
i think
you think
it might mean
and tonight
i just want
you to be still with me
Fairy Tale
i am a fairy mermaid princess
a castle an emerald city
a rabbit an elf and a beanstalk
a cigarette is a magic wand
only i get to make wishes on
and my ashtray is overflowing
my new tattoo is a tiara
your aimless heart is a glass slipper
maybe i could try it on for size
my dishes dance sing and wash themselves
my bed smiles while i am sleeping
and i'm a beauty while i'm awake
poetry is every lamppost
and every street corner is you
and the whole world is a street corner
a castle an emerald city
a rabbit an elf and a beanstalk
a cigarette is a magic wand
only i get to make wishes on
and my ashtray is overflowing
my new tattoo is a tiara
your aimless heart is a glass slipper
maybe i could try it on for size
my dishes dance sing and wash themselves
my bed smiles while i am sleeping
and i'm a beauty while i'm awake
poetry is every lamppost
and every street corner is you
and the whole world is a street corner
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Cheyenne
tonight
not only do i have this new wonderful friend
but i have a free spirit
and my soul isn't heavy
anymore
not only do i have this new wonderful friend
but i have a free spirit
and my soul isn't heavy
anymore
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Non Issues
my parents protected me
they treated me like a person
and let me make decisions
sometimes against my will
during those times
i would get a quick tug
be wrenched out of wonderment
sometimes it hurt a little
they treated me like a person
and let me make decisions
sometimes against my will
during those times
i would get a quick tug
be wrenched out of wonderment
sometimes it hurt a little
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Fly on the Wall
on the way home
i caught every green light
and saw an american flag
larger than life
on the back of a harley
and i cried and wanted to give you the poem
that i wrote
while i was thinking about you
and tonight
while you were on stage
perfect in black
i imagined asking you to be my friend
because if we were
i could have read the poem
that i wrote
while i was thinking about you
and someone i love
cried tonight
openly and privately
and it made me feel like crying too
and this is the poem that i wrote
while i was thinking about you
i caught every green light
and saw an american flag
larger than life
on the back of a harley
and i cried and wanted to give you the poem
that i wrote
while i was thinking about you
and tonight
while you were on stage
perfect in black
i imagined asking you to be my friend
because if we were
i could have read the poem
that i wrote
while i was thinking about you
and someone i love
cried tonight
openly and privately
and it made me feel like crying too
and this is the poem that i wrote
while i was thinking about you
visions
i had a vision of me
of us
walking down a gray street
but what i could see
was me
but through your eyes
it felt nice
to see
your me
somehow
that gray day
sure made my smile
shades and shades brighter
i like
winter
more now
of us
walking down a gray street
but what i could see
was me
but through your eyes
it felt nice
to see
your me
somehow
that gray day
sure made my smile
shades and shades brighter
i like
winter
more now
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Christmas List
i want to speak out of turn
i want to type out each word
i want a feather
or which ever one comes first
i want to not smoke as much
i want to not think as much
i want to not want
things that begin with a not
i want to type out each word
i want a feather
or which ever one comes first
i want to not smoke as much
i want to not think as much
i want to not want
things that begin with a not
Sunday, December 12, 2010
reoccuring
i felt awake
in my bed
late last night
then one by one
a procession
began to pass
by and through me
it was strange
lying there
feeling that
each time one passed
the wind picked up
then they were gone
and the wind died
one after
the other
and again
maybe i was asleep
maybe i was alone
maybe i am lying
but the wind was real
in my bed
late last night
then one by one
a procession
began to pass
by and through me
it was strange
lying there
feeling that
each time one passed
the wind picked up
then they were gone
and the wind died
one after
the other
and again
maybe i was asleep
maybe i was alone
maybe i am lying
but the wind was real
Saturday, December 11, 2010
pastel
sometimes i understand lassos
it strikes me at the most peculiar moments
is as if a rope appears in my hands
perfectly knit and tied
lovely little thing meant just for me
to draw something in
realize i have to know what i want to capture
nothing outside of these moments
has seemed important or
changed what i thought was me
it strikes me at the most peculiar moments
is as if a rope appears in my hands
perfectly knit and tied
lovely little thing meant just for me
to draw something in
realize i have to know what i want to capture
nothing outside of these moments
has seemed important or
changed what i thought was me
Creates a Medium
sometimes it is perfectly lovely to realize
nothing has changed
it is exactly the same
the sky is blue
clouds are imaginary
a cynic is a saint
to all the would be cynics
and today is beautiful
to all the would be saints
nothing has changed
it is exactly the same
the sky is blue
clouds are imaginary
a cynic is a saint
to all the would be cynics
and today is beautiful
to all the would be saints
Friday, December 10, 2010
i'm not a turtle
if you know me
you know i get excited
once you humiliated me
i think it was a misunderstanding
i appreciate you
taking the time
to read something
that was mine
but i never asked you to grade it
you did that on your own
it's not that i don't want to say hello anymore
it's that I did and you didn't say anything
this is just
something that was
on my chest
now it's not
you know i get excited
once you humiliated me
i think it was a misunderstanding
i appreciate you
taking the time
to read something
that was mine
but i never asked you to grade it
you did that on your own
it's not that i don't want to say hello anymore
it's that I did and you didn't say anything
this is just
something that was
on my chest
now it's not
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
The Times That I Cry
i talk about it
but i never tell anyone
about the times that i cry
it's not very often
that anyone knows
that i am sad
i am sad
all of the time
everytime i laugh
or remember your face and name
it's because we have to die
so i want to show you
that we are alive
laugh with me
remember me
i am fatherless
and my family is homeless
we only have each other
mother sister brother
and li'l ol' me
we get by
we're really close
what gets me the most
what really tempers happiness
is the loneliness i feel
not knowing how to heal
the rest of the world
that's just me
that's why i cry
but i never tell anyone
about the times that i cry
it's not very often
that anyone knows
that i am sad
i am sad
all of the time
everytime i laugh
or remember your face and name
it's because we have to die
so i want to show you
that we are alive
laugh with me
remember me
i am fatherless
and my family is homeless
we only have each other
mother sister brother
and li'l ol' me
we get by
we're really close
what gets me the most
what really tempers happiness
is the loneliness i feel
not knowing how to heal
the rest of the world
that's just me
that's why i cry
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Sensitivity to Inanimate Objects
trash speaks to me
leaves speak to me
little rocks speak to me
they say
pick me up
so i speak up
i say
what are you doing here
look how pretty you are
where'd you come from
people look at me like I'm crazy
leaves speak to me
little rocks speak to me
they say
pick me up
so i speak up
i say
what are you doing here
look how pretty you are
where'd you come from
people look at me like I'm crazy
Monday, December 6, 2010
to: aah from: me
i am sorry
for the times I promised you i would
call you
and didn't
i am sorry
that your heart hurts and no one here has
held you
close enough
you deserve more
than a fantasy or a passing
of eyes
over you
i feel stuck too
and i don't always know what to say
to you
or anyone
i will say this
everything you do makes me smile
straight through
and sideways
for the times I promised you i would
call you
and didn't
i am sorry
that your heart hurts and no one here has
held you
close enough
you deserve more
than a fantasy or a passing
of eyes
over you
i feel stuck too
and i don't always know what to say
to you
or anyone
i will say this
everything you do makes me smile
straight through
and sideways
Sunday, December 5, 2010
keep going
coming off nerves is a real high
coming off a real high
can be a bummer
pretty girl wishes
are wishes for people
to stop seeing ugly
what is the meaning of
this warm december
you got me
practice daily
being the person
you want to be
if i were me
oh wait
if i were me
i just got
up for no reason
and swept all of my floors
well for no other reason
than clearly
they needed a good sweeping
you know what else
I might even mop today
you know I am crazy like that
coming off a real high
can be a bummer
pretty girl wishes
are wishes for people
to stop seeing ugly
what is the meaning of
this warm december
you got me
practice daily
being the person
you want to be
if i were me
oh wait
if i were me
i just got
up for no reason
and swept all of my floors
well for no other reason
than clearly
they needed a good sweeping
you know what else
I might even mop today
you know I am crazy like that
Friday, December 3, 2010
elephant retirement home
i feel like our minutes could move the earth
as if you could put your ear to the ground
and hear us moving
the rumor is the weather will change tomorrow
well i heard it was changing everyday
i guess there's something special about tomorrow
as if you could put your ear to the ground
and hear us moving
the rumor is the weather will change tomorrow
well i heard it was changing everyday
i guess there's something special about tomorrow
Thursday, December 2, 2010
sticky note
if you grant the expected
you have to grant the unexpected
I've taken to thinking outloud in my apartment
some things just don't appeal to certain people
one of my favorite things to talk about is my train of thought
falling in love is fun
can't wait to do it again
feel all big teeth and long nails
my lows must hover just above most people's highs
it's always a poem
I think it is fair to say I am a romantic
I've been using the word warp a lot recently
mainly because I have been playing records
and most of them are warped
feel like
I feel
like something else
self assessment
i love when the starch is the star of the show
i love secret magic music
I am suspended in space
you have to grant the unexpected
I've taken to thinking outloud in my apartment
some things just don't appeal to certain people
one of my favorite things to talk about is my train of thought
falling in love is fun
can't wait to do it again
feel all big teeth and long nails
my lows must hover just above most people's highs
it's always a poem
I think it is fair to say I am a romantic
I've been using the word warp a lot recently
mainly because I have been playing records
and most of them are warped
feel like
I feel
like something else
self assessment
i love when the starch is the star of the show
i love secret magic music
I am suspended in space
showing up
two birds making circles
one heart shaped balloon going up up up
I think these birds will stick around this winter
they seem in no hurry to go any where
and you probably could see a balloon every day
if you were always looking for one
all this from five minutes
of looking out my window
one heart shaped balloon going up up up
I think these birds will stick around this winter
they seem in no hurry to go any where
and you probably could see a balloon every day
if you were always looking for one
all this from five minutes
of looking out my window
yeah yeah
I swear to God
there is one voice in my head
or at least there's only one
that's answering
Today I spoke
to eight sets of eyes and ears
so I was extra thoughtful
of not swearing
there is one voice in my head
or at least there's only one
that's answering
Today I spoke
to eight sets of eyes and ears
so I was extra thoughtful
of not swearing