you're in the next room, I miss you
and think of secret thoughts
that I would have told you
except I forget them when i see you
we make love like teenagers
our hearts too young to know better
but old enough to know
we will never know anything better
I had a thought out loud
about how we would never raise our voices
you voiced the circumstance of a fire
and I said, no you have to promise
so we planned our escape route
Monday, April 25, 2011
Thursday, April 21, 2011
practically yesterday
my grandfather burned up in a house fire
when my dad was twenty four years old
we inherited ten thousand dollars
and a renovated house
so dad quit his job and mowed the lawn
every sunday
his vision of his father
my grandmother was a blonde and never died
a black box of ashes bears her name
and currently lives on my dresser top
beside a dog named skippy
and the portrait of her former self
my version of her
with an emphasis on her
when my dad was twenty four years old
we inherited ten thousand dollars
and a renovated house
so dad quit his job and mowed the lawn
every sunday
his vision of his father
my grandmother was a blonde and never died
a black box of ashes bears her name
and currently lives on my dresser top
beside a dog named skippy
and the portrait of her former self
my version of her
with an emphasis on her
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Friday, April 15, 2011
Lucid Dreaming
Yesterday I woke up half asleep
and couldn't shake the image
of my father
unnatural in his coffin
Somehow I knew his skin was cold
but couldn't seem to remember
reaching out and placing my hands
on his corpse
I thought this should feel disturbing
this should feel like a disease
this should be proof of something
But it was none of those things
And soon all I could think of was
the word, daughter
and couldn't shake the image
of my father
unnatural in his coffin
Somehow I knew his skin was cold
but couldn't seem to remember
reaching out and placing my hands
on his corpse
I thought this should feel disturbing
this should feel like a disease
this should be proof of something
But it was none of those things
And soon all I could think of was
the word, daughter
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
On/Off Switch
there is a current
that if you trip
it shuts out the lights
there are surges
that must be grounded
or they'll do the same
that if you trip
it shuts out the lights
there are surges
that must be grounded
or they'll do the same
Monday, April 11, 2011
181
the whole picture is a rabbit hole
that works in progress
but i keep telling them
if they would just dig straight down
they'd get to the other side
in much better time
it's an awful good thing
that the machines
aren't digging it
because once a machine gets going
all you can do
is bend for it
one time
i told myself
i'm just going
to keep showing up
until everybody
knows me
that works in progress
but i keep telling them
if they would just dig straight down
they'd get to the other side
in much better time
it's an awful good thing
that the machines
aren't digging it
because once a machine gets going
all you can do
is bend for it
one time
i told myself
i'm just going
to keep showing up
until everybody
knows me
Relocated
sometimes people
are put in a position
of having to choose
between their own freedom
and the life of another
so we shut our eyes
while someone else
pulls the trigger
open your eyes
look at your hands
today we are free
are put in a position
of having to choose
between their own freedom
and the life of another
so we shut our eyes
while someone else
pulls the trigger
open your eyes
look at your hands
today we are free
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Retitled
it's all the same to me
the way we're different
in the middle of the night
we wake up
uncomfortable in our skin
in unmade beds
our flesh warm
dimpled
beneath goose feathers
exposed to conditioned air
our limbs numb
wrapped around syndromes
lips repeating the name of love
oh god oh god oh god oh god
for some it is a battle cry
and for most
a cry
some sort of loss
but for me
and for you
it is a thank you
and someone whispers you're welcome
the bed disappears
our lips find each other
my fingers trace your spine
a piece of me dies
your fingers strike a chord
and love and fear become the same word
the way we're different
in the middle of the night
we wake up
uncomfortable in our skin
in unmade beds
our flesh warm
dimpled
beneath goose feathers
exposed to conditioned air
our limbs numb
wrapped around syndromes
lips repeating the name of love
oh god oh god oh god oh god
for some it is a battle cry
and for most
a cry
some sort of loss
but for me
and for you
it is a thank you
and someone whispers you're welcome
the bed disappears
our lips find each other
my fingers trace your spine
a piece of me dies
your fingers strike a chord
and love and fear become the same word