Bent

I spilled my beer trying to hold on to that feeling
that two-fold feeling that validates everyone
and self
the feeling is hard to hold onto
comes while ordering a round
and leaves you as soon as the company is gone
if not before
when the glasses are empty
and everyone knows
no one else is buying the next one
but it's about more than drinks on the house
or coffee or ice or water for charity
it is self
it is everyone
wanting more
and working harder for it
honesty our only companion
whether anyone else knows it or not