bracelets and charms

it's been ten years
ten whole years
and now


I remember the first time
and though I didn't cry
tears had filled my eyes

now my right wrist suffers sympathy pains
and I'm aware of the sensation
as I stare at my brand new scar


this time there was no sign of tears
and the value far outweighed the loss
I quoted the cost of when I was young


my heart still races
my senses are alert
what did I just do to me


besides commit
forever
to me