down low (triple life)

if you, in your insistence,
are a piece of shit,
than I am too
if I, in my persistence,
can not have you...
isn't it sad to think like this
Maybe it is just me
but every time we speak
you are smiling, you are witty,
and seem to understand what I mean
when I casually mention
alternate realities and infinity
I was just talking shit
but you were definitely listening